Spaceboy

"Spaceboy"
Song by The Smashing Pumpkins
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Released	1993-07-27
Studio sessions	November 1992 – Broadway Rehearsal Studios December 1992-March 1993 – Triclops Sound June 30, 1993 – VPRO Radio
Length	4:27
Label	Virgin
Songwriter(s)	Billy Corgan
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"Spaceboy" is a song from The Smashing Pumpkins' second studio album, Siamese Dream. Billy Corgan has stated that "Spaceboy" was written as a tribute to his autistic half-brother, Jesse Andersen.

“ That's about my little brother. He's an interesting character. It's kind of about how he's different. He has physical handicap, it's hard to explain. He has a rare chromosomal disorder, it gives him a some what different genetic make up. He has different physical and mental problems and yet somehow by all accounts, I'm physically and mentally OK. But I feel our lives are the similar. [Similar in the way that we are both] Freaks of nature, freaks of society, I always keep going back to something by Henry Miller. No matter how much he smiled, told jokes, shook hands, patted people on the back. People still looked at him funny, they still sensed something wasn’t right. I've always felt that way, that no matter how normal I appear, I was treated differently. ” — Billy Corgan, Feelnumb.com

"Spaceboy" also features Corgan playing the Mellotron. An alternate version of this song (most commonly seen in the unofficially released collection of rarities Mashed Potatoes) features Pink Floyd-esque slide guitar playing in the chorus instead of the Mellotron.

The album version features a hidden message after the song, with audio recording of some late night show (rumoured to be HBO's "Real Sex", although Billy Corgan never confirmed it because of copyright lawsuit possibility) with an anonymous woman speaking: "Now it's, uh, kind of strange, and, uh, kinda awkward for me to talk about, but I thought maybe you could help, um, when we start getting physical, rather than having intercourse, he ends up just masturbating himself, and I end up feeling very alienated and unsatisfied, and it's really come between us." The clip fades in slowly, but the volume is set to be very low, probably to make unaware listener turn up the volume manually and get taken aback by loud and heavy intro riff of the next track, "Silverfuck".

Lyrics

Feel it
Break your bones
Mr. Jones

Taste me
As I bleed
Taste my need

And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinning round my head
And any way you choose me
You'll break instead

Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
Please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
'cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks
I want to go home
I want to go home

And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong

We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong

Availability

Title	Notes	Type
Quiet and Other Songs		Demo • Bootleg
Siamese Dream (promo)	UK and France CD	Promotional
Siamese Dream	Original release	Studio
Unplugged: 100% Pure Acoustic Performances		Bootleg
Acoustic Series		Bootleg
The Cutting Edge	June 30, 1993 – Hilversum, NL (studio / acoustic)	Bootleg
Mayonaise Dream		Bootleg • Live
Mashed Potatoes		Bootleg
Brat Pack		Compilation
Pluggelectric	June 30, 1993 – Hilversum, NL (studio / acoustic)	Bootleg
Siamese Dream (Fruit Bats cover)		Tribute

Tour stats

• Total plays: 125 plays (124 full, 1 abandoned), 77 acoustic, 2 artists
• First performance: The Smashing Pumpkins 1992-07-23 at Metro, Chicago, IL, US
• Last performance: The Smashing Pumpkins 2023-09-17 at Madame ZuZu's, Highland Park, IL, US (abandoned)
• Last full performance: The Smashing Pumpkins 2023-09-17 at Madame ZuZu's, Highland Park, IL, US

External links

• "Spaceboy" at SPFC